Showing My Butt To The World

I have been so motivated to write lately. And the reason why is because for years when I was married, during the separation and after the divorce I was not allowing to have a real conversation with my children. I had a messing divorce. At first I did not know that was what my ex-husband was planning. At the time I was really depression and had bad anxiety. My ex-husband had me throw into a hospital over night for suicide attempt which at the time I was not suicide. I have been in the past and he took advance of this. During that time, I was in the hospital he went to the magistrate office and got a restraining order again me to keep me from my children. When I got out of the hospital, he met me in a public library and had me sign a separation papers that he wrote himself. At the time I was shocked from being in that disgust environmental surround by crazy people and mortified by what he was saying to me. When I first saw the documents, I asked if we are getting a divorce and he say “No,” and follow with, “I just want you to get help for this is temporary.” It was sick months later that he admitted that he wants a divorce and say that our marriage was over two years ago.  I asked him about all the time that we had sex during that two years and when he says he love me, he says that all these things did not count.

Over the separation period I went to abuse counselor and was told that what he says about the time we had sex did not count, by him saying that it is a form of sexual abuse. I learn thought going to counselor that I was emotion abuse by him. I made the decide to move on and try to have coordinate relationship with him as parent to our children only. However, that did not work very way, he would cut me off from the conversation with my children just to remind me about mine traumatize events in front of the children yelling at the top of his lung (I only had phone contact with them). Over the years, I got better at ending the conversation before he would do that. However, the children could not tell me how they really feel. I felt lost as a parent that I could not be there to help them and powerless to do anything about the situation.

It was not until recent that my daughter wrote me a letter and I wanting to write back to her. However, my ex-husband had voice out to me many times that if I wrote anything unappropriated that he would mark out with a black marker that part in the letter. And his definition of unappropriated would be things like if I asked my daughter if she would like to go to the high school in my area. He says that was unappropriated. She asked me in the letter what happen back when she was younger and wanting to know for herself. She understands that her father would not want her to know but she was asking me for an answer. I so want to give her an answer but I know because of the separation paper that I sign I could not have a conversation without her father listen in over the phone and I knew from what he told me and his action in the past that he would want to hide everything important I have to say to my children. So, I made the decide to go with a public letter to my daughter because I want for my daughter to know my true feelings and thoughts.

My ex-husband has read my letter to my daughter and want me to take it down. He is ever threatened to take legal action on me. I have done some research on the matter and my letter does broken any privacy laws. For I did not say any names or address. Also, because the facts are true, and this is a testimony to my experience, I am protection by Freedom of Speech. In fact, the only time we really see this kind of stuff is when the person who is writing is a best seller and publish thousands of books and the person, they bad talk was a celebrity or government official.

To be honest, I feel like I have very little to loss, I feel like I lost the most important thing in my life a long time ago and that was my children. I feel like I would like him to take me to court because than I could bring up how he blocks me from having a relationship with my children. I have gotten so use to rebuilding my life that I know I will always have a roof over my head because I am a veteran with a voucher and he would not be able to take that away from me.  I think the courts would laugh at him for trying to sue me. I maybe reckless for thinking this way; however, I don’t like the idea that I have to be quiet when someone else is enjoying their life because they step on someone for that happy life. I guess you could say this is human irrational thinking at it best.

 

Angie Adventure Continues

Meet Lynn, she is a changeling that is part hag (witch) and sea serpent. Due to the fact that she is part sea serpent, she is nocturnal. She is a orphan. While growing up, she was move from one foster home to next. The most kind person would get so frustrated with her and end up giving up on her. However, one day a female assassin came thought the village that Lynn was living in and heard about the rumor say about Lynn. Lynn foster mother was dragging Lynn by the arm out of the orphan home and yelling at Lynn. The assassin saw this and punish the woman in the face. The assassin say to Lynn, “How would you like to become an assassin?” Lynn fast asleep say, “mmhmm…sure..”

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When I was coming up with this character, I was remember what school was like with trouble kids. In fact, I was a trouble kid from time to time. Most of the problems we see in school is because kids have trouble fitting in with our society rules. However, some problems are not the kid fault at all. They just need someone to meet their needs instead of trying to have the kid fit their need. I enjoy writing fiction because their are author that I think are genius at getting people to listen to their view on the world. For example, Frankenstein written by Mary Shelley. It was a political message to the people of her day but in a way that was fun. I am hoping that I could do the same but with comic books. I am a visual learning and know how hard it is to stick to something that does not have pictures. So I hope that I could reach people who have simple learning style as myself.

Animore Con Jan 11th - 13th

This weekend is Animore Con in Baltimore, MD. I have setup my table and ready for a fun weekend of anime!! Follow me on Instagram and Facebook to see all the fun moments during the con.

I will have prints of my paintings including anime fan art. I have brought five of my original painting and I will be selling Fairy and Dragons Friendship T-shirt.

I have two announcement:

  1. I will be giving away a free t-shirt. Make sure to come visit my table to require for a chance to win a t-shirt. I will be drawing name out of a box on Sunday at 11am of the event.

  2. I will be often free shipping to anyone at the con so make sure to visit my table and show me your badge. I will be giving these who visit my table a code for free shipping.

This is a great time to meet me and I will have more to talk about my comic book that I will have release in Oct 2019. I look forward to meeting all of you and making new friends.

Update:

This weekend have been amazing. Thank you to those who came out. Here are some pictures from this weekend.

Angie Adventure Background

For those who do not know. I am working on a comic book. I have not came up with a name for it yet. I am in the process of developing the main characters to it. However, here is a small taste of what to come this is the background to my main character which her name is Angie. This is very much a rough draft. I hope you enjoy it.

Later in the future, I will have more detail to when you will see this publish and where. I just want to give my fan a little peck to what I am working on.

Also, I do like hearing from my reader what they think of it. So don’t be shy and comment in the comment part of the page.

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